PREFACE

Year 2006 is crawling in its last fortnight. The world is getting ready to welcome another new year with fresh hopes and aspirations and resolutions. At my end, things changed drastically and life took U turn. On 8th November, I was operated upon for a tumor around throat and on 14th November, it was reported to be malignant. Presently I am under radiation treatment facing severe health problems as a result. Life runs on hopes. And so we do hope life to be again on track after treatment by the end of January.

Earlier I have completed my write ups on and around self in October with no clue of its fate. My idea was, perhaps to hand it over to Sandeep and Sangeet for them to decide about it and its fate. But my experience on the first day of IMRT RADIATION inspired me to write its preface and name its title. It was a dreadful experience to be isolated for 25 minutes with tight mask on my face in the radiation room. I felt so suffocated that I wanted to discontinue the treatment. The doctor persuaded and convinced me to try once and permitted Sandeep to be with me in the room with some protective clothes. But I was not comfortable with the idea of keeping Sandeep in the radiation room where even doctors or technicians do not stay during radiation. So I took the shelter of ever available almighty. During full duration I thought of Him and his graciousness provided to me in last sixty years. To start with I thanked him that I was born in such a great country to so admiring parents. I was blessed to belong to such hard working and value based dynasty of Thakurdasji. I remembered my great grand mother and grandmother and cherished sweet memories spent under the umbrella of their innocent love during early years of my life. It took me to my schooling and college days and thanked Him for providing so admiring teachers and professors who guided and helped me, at times, even out of way .It reminded me of all my friends from early years up to date and I was delighted to ascertain that all those friendships were based for the cause of love and affection only without having any self interest or motive. I was overwhelmed to think of His graciousness in fixing up my soul mate, Shobha and thereafter blessing us with Sandeep and Sangeet, who are as genius as Thakurdasji would have loved to have down the line in his dynasty to carry on his legacy with sincere work and honesty. While I was thanking Him for carrying the family through three health oriented crisis where in Babuji,Bai and Shobha were the victims at one or other time ,the humming sound of radiation machine stopped .Doctors came rushing to release me and thereafter I used to pass through such experience on each radiation so far. And today was the 14th out of scheduled 33, to be completed on 12th January, if goes on without interruption. I have started feeling weak, complexion getting darker, tongue and throat infected so badly that drinking of water is very painful. It is very painful to even talk, so I am more or less confined to silence from yesterday.

Pondering upon my first day’s experience during radiation, some thoughts about facts of life clicked in mind. Each journey corresponds to one more step in one’s knowledge of world and of one’s own life and personality. As the universal rule, I came alone in this world and when my time comes, I am to leave this world alone. But in between, during stay over here, I am never alone. I AM BECAUSE YOU ARE. I am a son because you are my caring parents. I am an Indian because you are my great country. I am a student as because you were my teachers. I am a brother because you are my intimate sister. I am a husband as you are my so sweet wife. I am papa as because you are my lovely beta and beti. I am a friend as a result of you all being my friends. I am BADE SIR because you all are working with me. If I am a lover, it is because you all love me. I am dadaji because you both are my closest-to-heart grandsons. I am a bird lover because of my pet parrot. And the list goes on. So, WHAT I AM, it is the result of WHAT YOU ARE in relation to me. Though the journey began in isolation and will end in loneliness, my life and character or personality has been built up through my relation with you all. The base is the RELATION, I conclude.

Under the light of this conclusion, I found that RELATION is the key subject of my write ups. Life is an adventure. And I have experienced and am in the process of my navigation through this adventure. Let me therefore present my memories under the title of ADVENTURE IN RELATIONSHIP.

I am grateful to all, who developed relationship with me in one or other capacity and bestowed unqualified love upon me. It is high time now to focus towards the greatest relationship. Let us try to be honestly responsive to the clarion call of Lord Krishna- MAMEKAM SHARANAM VRAJA, which can only be achieved through the principles of VASUDEVA SARWAMITI.

Faridabad, the 19th December 2006.